hmm.. this is my pathetic little life

my little pathetic life that i lived everyday .. Don really no what i am aimlessly living for .. Well this one year 2008 .. have teach me many things in life .. Although i have no many ppl to console at .. this is where i learn things thru the hard way to learn the easy way out .. get what i mean .. everybody is stubborn by nature .. Learning that time waits for no man .. in a blink of an eye .. many of my friends have already done much accomplishments in life .. some have already got their diploma .. Stubborn and stupid of me to realised it so late ..

well .. it ok .. everybody deserve a second chance .. A second apportunities to cover for the mistakes and stupidity that have took over me ..
Well i have already ask for an enrolment in chec .. hmm .. this time i don really wanna mess up my life again .. and mess up my future .. the state i am in now seems so fuck-up ..
if i listen to my parents back than .. i would have already got at least another cert .. now i have come back to square 1 ..

hmm .. next monday got test examination .. for english and maths .. hmm .. wonder should i quit my this job .. and brush up on my studies first .. but even if i quit my job .. i have lots of spare time .. I know taking O-level .. is't hard .. just need patience to study ..
It was a really long long time i had to endure .. before and after i get into a private school .. wonder how would my parents pay for my school fees .. hope my permanent residence application goes through well enough ..

really have to brush up on my studies if i really wanna score well .. Well i though of a way .. since i be enrolling into school next year .. january .. i will take this time to study .. i know i don have much patience to sit don and concentrate .. so what i thought of was .. brush up my grammer and vocabulary .. in a certain given time ..

i am not going to fuck my life up once again .. trust me .. i gonna treasure this golden opportunty .. perpharps i should quit my job after next week .. secure my pay first .. What i am afraid is the pub don pay me in full amount as the given stated salary .. so gor the time being .. Got to swallow my saliva and continue working ..