hmm.. this is my pathetic little life

my little pathetic life that i lived everyday .. Don really no what i am aimlessly living for .. Well this one year 2008 .. have teach me many things in life .. Although i have no many ppl to console at .. this is where i learn things thru the hard way to learn the easy way out .. get what i mean .. everybody is stubborn by nature .. Learning that time waits for no man .. in a blink of an eye .. many of my friends have already done much accomplishments in life .. some have already got their diploma .. Stubborn and stupid of me to realised it so late ..

well .. it ok .. everybody deserve a second chance .. A second apportunities to cover for the mistakes and stupidity that have took over me ..
Well i have already ask for an enrolment in chec .. hmm .. this time i don really wanna mess up my life again .. and mess up my future .. the state i am in now seems so fuck-up ..
if i listen to my parents back than .. i would have already got at least another cert .. now i have come back to square 1 ..

hmm .. next monday got test examination .. for english and maths .. hmm .. wonder should i quit my this job .. and brush up on my studies first .. but even if i quit my job .. i have lots of spare time .. I know taking O-level .. is't hard .. just need patience to study ..
It was a really long long time i had to endure .. before and after i get into a private school .. wonder how would my parents pay for my school fees .. hope my permanent residence application goes through well enough ..

really have to brush up on my studies if i really wanna score well .. Well i though of a way .. since i be enrolling into school next year .. january .. i will take this time to study .. i know i don have much patience to sit don and concentrate .. so what i thought of was .. brush up my grammer and vocabulary .. in a certain given time ..

i am not going to fuck my life up once again .. trust me .. i gonna treasure this golden opportunty .. perpharps i should quit my job after next week .. secure my pay first .. What i am afraid is the pub don pay me in full amount as the given stated salary .. so gor the time being .. Got to swallow my saliva and continue working ..

been working at soho since last week ..

this is my eleven day working at soho room .. hmm .. hmm .. got live band and Deejay .. quite enjoyable .. but some times veri bored when there's is't nth to do ..

angry till like toot today .. ppl come and peng wei .. ccb .. macam i owe you like that .. act like a freaking gundu .. wahlao .. today alomost got fight in soho room .. hmm .. think of it also can laugh .. becos of i think one party not happy the way de other party cheers drink or something .. than want to fight like that .. act onli sia .. than police man walk over .. ask the guy go home ..
kao .. actually .. those working at pub de .. haiya .. say nice enough .. onli sit there you look at me i look at you .. everybody look at everybody .. got fight jus go over there say police .. knn .. my father also know sia .. but too bad la .. my father so old liao ..

ah chew today told me angry also no used .. must know how to control temper .. hmm .. say Becos of money than we all like that .. also true la .. Asked me give him face .. wahlao .. don understand .. not my fault also must give you face .. if i nv work at there .. give you eat my slipper arr ..

sunday outing

today went out singapore .. did't meet anybody at first .. hmm .. lazy lah .. when straight to plaza sing .. did't walk around the shopping centre .. felt that nth interest me .. hmm .. when to collect pay straight away .. turn-ed me on right away .. hmm .. about 490 plus .. minus the money i owed to my aunty .. 390 .. but haven pay yet .. intend to pay soon ..
than went over to esplanade .. meet up with xiaobai .. she's really getting fatter .. growing more round le .. but what the hell .. At least's she happy with what she have now .. nth comes more than that right ?? ..
walk here and there no motive .. than xiaobai ask me look at a display .. it's located at a underpass .. kinda stupid .. with singlish .. don understand what's the motive .. than we took mrt down to marina square .. walk here and there .. than went to marina square kopitiam .. sat the brought two drinks .. sat the for quite long .. talked bout everything and anything .. that's life i perceive ..
than i suggested long john sliver .. missed and long-ed for the cheese over there .. my gosh everything in price hike up .. According to xiaobai .. even the mayo requires 20 cent .. Ass you lah ..
ever consider abt those ppl who are not that rich ..

hmm .. we talked about everybody .. hmm .. kinda funny i wonder .. even if those ppl who are already bad .. tend to learn the good way .. its like learning how to turn good thru the hard way ..
but's there always a bunch .. i mean a big big bunch of ppl tried to find a place in this no-point society .. I mean for ..
kinda admire these ppl whom really turn over a good leaf .. i mean have you ever tot of carrying on like this with ur life for the rest of ur miserable life ..
ppl tends to get michievious and playful at times .. but i ought there tends to be a limit to everything .. As i pass by sunplaza today .. saw quite a few ppl .. wow .. could't recognised them .. like 360 change ..
Even those ppl i knew years back in secondary school .. during my times .. turn-ed out to be so Gentle-manly or so lady-like .. my gosh .. Are my eyes playing trick on me ??? doubts so .. but Things don't always remain the same ..

than xiaobai told me she had the thought of touching those things back again .. To slim down .. hmm .. yup .. un-logically yup its a way too .. but .. how much money are you going to throw down the drain .. Frankly speaking.. i also tot of playing it when my life get roughs and so ill .. but .. when i tot of how i endure thru the days when there's is't any money for me to eat .. how i endure .. threw down my face .. friends treated me .. basically everything .. even though they can't even save their own ass .. well .. you live a better life than me .. at least you got a stable job and a seriously stable boyfriend .. thought of the past ..
at least he is abled to sacrifice his happy times .. and you are willing to accept the circumstances ..
what about me .. what a fuck up life i had .. what the hell have i done to Deserve this .. hmm .. Man yuan also no used .. one way or another i asked for it unknowingly ..

be getting my pay soon

tml will be going out singapore .. to take my last mth pay .. wonder how much will it be .. ha .. still tot of opening chalet .. see how than .. later not enough money all that .. hmm .. still got ppl ask me chu shi for them .. so little money sia .. not like one year ago .. help one sai guan chu .. veri satisfying .. well ..

will be finding job next week .. my first aim .. find pub job .. prefer night life .. tot of my house nearby here .. wonder how would they pay .. will it be acceptable enough .. taunt the last few night at sbw .. boring .. hmm ..

relax"

hmm .. went out singapore on monday .. felt kinda boring at home .. could't take the boredom .. my gosh .. hmm .. than went to sun plaza .. meet vincent at sun plaza .. chit chat with him .. hmm .. was kinda shocked he got another girlfriend again .. but he seems happy 2gether with her .. happy for him nor .. at least he found an happiness he could rely on .. hmm .. than jieyong and darren came along .. sit down at mos burger talk cock for a veri long time .. heard their story this and that .. always quarrel all this .. wad the toot .. time to grow up don u think so ??

hmm than ah jack came along with weikang and kenneth .. hmm .. sit down and talk talk talk .. hmm .. totally don have money to spent .. hmm .. totally no mood .. than they ask me go along for drinking session at boat quey .. hmm .. at first was like kinda ps .. moreover i was wearing 3/4 pants and slipper .. but they say monday no body de .. haha ..

Called mei yan and willy along 2gether too .. hmm .. in the train we talked and talked .. so fast reached there .. like in a flash .. hmm .. let my troubles blew away .. really relax my self .. i tot "smack that" would be better .. but it prove me wrong ..
this type of outing would prove it better .. but kinda expensive to always have this outing ..

hmm .. we laugh and laugh .. kinda wasted that we nv tooks pictures .. to remind the sweet outing we had .. wad the toot .. than ah jack quarrel with his boss and think his girlfriend .. not veri sure .. than console him .. kinda stupid .. last time is the other way round .. macam older ppl advise me ..

hmm .. i would prefer night life siax .. thought of finding pubs jobs .. night life rocks man .. but where do i begin ..
hmm .. during that outing i called xiaobai .. heard her voice was like dead .. wonder what happen ?? .. well .. tot of having an outing with her and a few more friends .. close one would be better .. but she seems so busy .. if not i would i no money .. one day would come where we would find the time de ..

when will my life change??