Angry .. treeat me as a idiot izzit??

hmm .. i have been so wrongly accused .. what voucher lost , clothes lost .. cashier money lost .. heng arr onli 10 rm lost ..

Everyday so busy where got time to bother bout this .. as part time i dont think it is my duty .. there is't a cashier there at all .. than what you expevt us to do .. as part-time .. expect the customers to wait .. come on already told you .. my experience more than you .. somemore where were all the full-time when the shop needed people .. Play cashier .. come on la .. As easy as abc .. even my mother also can do that all day long .. need people teach meh .. what put all the blame on me ..

i did came out a word .. money lost nevermind lor .. who touch cashier who pay .. fair enough .. got th to day bout that .. than wad else .. if i want steal money .. come la . use ur stupid dit-wit little brain .. why would i at the first place take so little money .. 10 ringgit .. fuck you la .. for ten dollars i throw away my dignity and get blamed for this ..

than today wake up nv go work and the day b4 that .. today the lady boss msg me .. say ytd nv come so today nv come .. ask me return uniform ... why no responsibilty .. nv turn up for work ..salary for the past few day i am cnt take ..

i was still sleeping .. its was a good thing that i was't that stupid to wake up for work ..
what treat me as this is my first day of work izzit .. hmm .. chiong lim bei sio .. called her ask her why .. i say " miss .. i working as part-time not full-time " why my pay cannot take .. she say" cos you never come for work" .. than i say " this is not the first time i started working " .. than she say " by next mth of 15 must give her back everything .. than she say " but you coem late for work i will deduct " .. i say that one you want deduct i got nth to say " .. What ah lian si bo .. fuck you la hor .. i just come for the money .. not to get humilated ok .. i control my temper .. but you pushed me too hard this time .. I also could't give a shit to your uniform .. who cares bout it .. will return it .. don worry ..

When nth start to happens or get lost .. No body seems to be worried .. but after that .. everydbody seems so concerned .. fuck up

tuesday working day .. 28/10/2008

hmm .. wonder why are there such hideous people .. hmm .. at my work place there's a girl 17 yrs old .. like that work full time .. hmm .. so bossful .. talk like ah lian lian like that .. what the hell .. but the veri next day i knew she like angkat bola .. angkat the shop supervisor .. No use la .. pls can angkat until where .. promote you to area manger huh .. wait long long la .. i have more working experience ... in service line .. close one eye also can jalan 1 ..

i come late .. i write early timing .. don dare say anything huh .. wait till shop supervisor come back at tua me out izzit .. watch out la .. fucking thorn in the flesh ..

anyway its jus for me to passt ime till next year till i can enrole back to school .. So just pass time and earn some pocket money

wonder why people so fucked up one .. things nv long heck care care .. veri lenient .. vouncher and clothes start to lost .. wah impose this rule and that rule .. pls la .. say what i sleep no heart work or wad ..

come on la .. i close one eye also close more deals than you .. just that my name is not on the computer .. i don get any extra credit for closing more deals .. so why should i bother .. why work full-time more privilages huh ??

b4 supervisor come back face like macam bao jing tian .. supervisor come back wah .. 360 degrees change .. why you hoping for a promotion si bo ?? wait for next yr christmas lor ..

i onli offer lip service .. don get commision . why the hell should i work that extra mile .. for fuck??

tua me and another guy out .. b4 saying ppl look at urself first la ..

hmm .. sunday working life

hmm .. work at 2 pm today .. drove the car down .. hmmm .. as usual .. late as always .. cos supervisor did't work .. hmm .. who else can control me than ??
went to arcade play game .. go walk walk .. see this thing and that thing .. hmm all like expensive like that ..

hmm .. going to buy a shoe another few more days to come .. hmm .. damm nice .. can wear for outing or formal wear also .. one stone kill two bird ..

As time passes by slowly .. As i work .. kinda admire those who are in a relationship .. Kinda sweet .. the feeling it's like beyond words .. beyond recognition .. Some admit that being in a relationship mean being tied up .. No freedom and all .. but what about those who have all the freedom .. hmm ..

felt that for the few years .. all the relationship was all in a failure .. nothing seems to go right for me .. it's like nothing seems to be in my favour .. What's happening in my life .. Cna someone explaiin to me ..

Why everytime when i fall for someone .. it's just impossible .. just so ridiculous ..

Well ..

hmm .. thursday working life

hmm .. today working at city square as usual .. from ten am till ten pm .. hmm .. the day was boring .. today came a new guy .. hmm .. chatted thru the day .. Went walk walk in xity square .. see here and there .. brought alot of food to eat .. hmm .. till one stage i dozed off .. can't take the boredom .. hmm .. lucky there was my colleages to accompany me thru chat and talk nonsense .. so life won't be so boring ..

i realised i don really have much friends to confide in .. I realised that although i meet you onli three months ago .. i feel like opening up my heart to you .. feel like telling you .. but what i realised you was jus a passer-by .. whom pass by in my life once ..

tuesday working day

hmm today work as normanll hmm .. get alittle agitated everytime .. hello it's so freaking boring over there .. hmm .. but jus for the sake of killing time .. hmm .. read my storybook .. that story book that i brought at kl since June .. did't really touch that book at all .. but it's my money .. so i gotta appreciate the storyline of it ..

don really know hat i am been agitated about this few days .. It's so hard to swallow this breath .. hmm .. knowing that i can't keep this to my self .. i know that i unknowingly fell for yoou .. Without a doubt i perceive that it would be better to remain this way ..

i saw a few clothes at polo haus that i wanna buy .. one black polo-shirt .. white one .. grey .. and red .. lastly a black leather shoe .. seems fitting on me .. but its so freaking expensive .. According to my calcutions .. its like 600 rm .. including those black leather shoes ..

I should find a reason to continue living life meaningfully .. Accept the fact that its the way i have to live .. hmm .. don wanna drag my life into a mess anymore ..

first day working in city square

hmm .. today started my first day of work in city square .. actually first day of work .. i met up with it dozen of time .. keep on changing and jumping different jobs .. well this job seems quite relaxing .. hmm .. quite realx de .. but kinda bored .. have to stand and stand .. like for fuck??

hmm .. my workplace de people also quite friendly .. kinda noisy .. always make noise and gossip about anything and everything .. hmm .. quite fun .. hmm .. veri lenient .. even the supervisor also slacker lai de .. hmm .. so what the fuck .. i could't care less .. even better for us .. hmm ..

first day of work .. hmm met up with this customer .. hmm .. he proclaimed he lost his briefcase .. well .. he requested for many things .. well of course i seek help .. but i managed to closed a 800 ringgit sales from him .. hmm .. kinda delicious .. if i were to get the money .. hmm .. but well closing the deal neither benefits me nor increase my pay .. but well jus for the sake of killing time .. hmm .. a european man .. Gets abt 70 thousand euro per mth .. well according to my calcution its like 2 brand new car every month .. jus his own personal salary .. wHat about his other benefits and incentives .. hmm .. well i can say it's enough for me to sit at home and do nth .. jus enjoy life the way it has to be ..

hmm .. kinda funny .. most of the people there seems reliant on me .. to deal with english-educated background customer .. but well .. i used to get tips from these type of foregne people .. Basically western culture people .. hmm ..

hmm .. well i guess when i was young .. heard many self cultivating stories .. On choosing your own path in life .. stepping on the wrong stone in life .. mixing with the wrong bunch of friend and what not .. well .. i guess it's jus another way for a growing teenager to learn lessons like that thru the hard way to learn the easy way out .. hmm ..

It's time for me to tone down my life-style .. time for me to concentrate on what i wish to have and would like to live in the near coming future .. till the day i have accomplished my goals .. life will naturally come in streamline for me .. I don really wish to live everyday without knowing when i can stand high and feel proud of my self .. hmm .. education seems boring to everybody .. i agreed with no less of a doubt .. i believe its veri agreeable .. but without education where will we all stand in this cruel society .. ?? ...Can some one answer me this

Saturaday life

woke up early this morning .. when to sunway colleage right after that .. hmm .. enquired bout many things hmm .. but to no avail .. hmm .. flashing back .. what have i been doing with my life for the past few years .. hmm .. why did i got off tracked ..
hmm .. right after that when to eat fish ball noodle at sentosa .. where Nights lifes also seems to be ther with out fail .. hmm ...change alot though ..

Than came out to singapore .. Met up with liming at cwp .. than meet up with wanting .. hmm .. acc her for her lunch break .. chit chatted for an hour or so .. than headed to sbw .. meet up with the rest .. talk abt anything that we could .. hmm ..

than headed down to bugis .. meet xiaobai and ah long at there.. Guess what .. saw celest and qian hui .. hmm ..its been like a freaking few yrs since we got met up .. hmm .. Times seems to wait for No tide .. Chit chatted abt our personal life .. than off I went ..

I finally realised the meaning of liking a person don't reallyy mean you have to chase or be with her .. i kinda choose to Ignore .. i choose to overlook .. Cos i know It's better to continue on with life .. it's kinda more agreeable to have a friend whom you know you won't lose no matter what till the end of time .. hmm .. It's mean Less a problem ..
Kinda impossible though .. What make me felt this way .. hmm .. i guess keeping everything to my self won't seem to solve any thing .. Can't believe my secondary school companion and best buddy Esther gonna get her self married le .. Been a pleasure knowing you .. happy for you ..

there are still many things bothering me .. i mean will i be able to cope with next year .. after registering back for O-Lvl .. hmm Had a thorn in my flesh since i have already decided to ..
hmm ..

Xiaobai did't really mean to delay your time at bugis de .. but .. My life now is jus kinda Fuck up inside out .. i choosed to run everytime .. hmm .. Really wonder If i really Change my character .. Anyway my character is't that screwed up .. Will She come back to me?? ..Well .. been two years .. Just a thought .. No hopes though ..

Everytime i Encounter any mistake be it Problems or conflicts .. i chose to ignore and walk away .. been kinda pain in the ass ..

Really wonder why I will touch this kinda stuff back .. everything have a reason .. i hope i kinda stand up back on my own feet .. And move on with life .. facing the problem that comes ..
Hmm .. My Old time friends are kinda ahead of me in terms of education .. What the hell am i doing ???

Well .. I choose this choice .. i hope you kinda find some1 who really know how to take care of you.. and Not mess up your life .. i Believe your life is Sufficiently screw up alr .. been a pleasure knowing you too .. Friends i choose to be .. hmm .. Don't really wanna screw up or come in between my friends nor whom .. kinda disgusted by this ..

hmm .. friday life

woke up late today .. ytd see movie till late .. saw disaster movie .. another lame movie to the core .. don really get the picture of the show .. hmm .. than went to guan yin temple jus down the road today .. pray pray all this .. went for lunch .. at a vegetarian restaurant .. hmm .. the food suck there .. everything is based on vegetable and doufu .. eat till like walao ..

hmm ..

when was the last time i blog

hmm .. its been a long time since i even bothered to touch my blog .. well ..
hmm .. got a job last month .. at plaza sing .. Was a nice job good pay and all .. but the only factor that was bothering me was insufficient sleep .. but some how i could't get my work permit .. Well too sad for me also .. had to leave the place .. Most of the ppl there were like mostly foreigners .. well .. malaysians ..

hmm .. the thought of me going back to study happened when i was working at plaza sing .. hmm ..although i have a strong command of english .. i don't stand a chance as compare to them .. they are like grauduate from somewhere .. learn a traits or two .. but well .. i decided to upgrade my self .. so many things happened back than ..

last few days , when to city square to ask for job .. walk around look around .. hmm .. lots and lots of memories came back ..hmm ..
i may be one step slower than him but .. what is over is over .. mayb its jus a fling .. or something .. did't expect my self to fall for you .. well ..
tot of huijun too .. well .. she might have hurt me alot might had make me change alot .. come to think of it back again.. hmm .. jus memories .. wonder if really one day can we make up or find some1 better .. hmm .. actually gotta lots and lots of stuffs i feel like to burst out ..
well .. i did't know how to chase after you .. you were my friend .. but the thought of it was like ..
hais .. its been a long time .. i even forget how to chase a girl liao .. well .. but .. As i tot that being friends with you would save another friendship ..
cause i usually see that most of the outcome that relationships .. have no happy ending .. well put it this way no positive outcome .. Well you are assemble jus like huijun .. hmm .. really know how to cheer ppl up .. all those thingys .. hmm ..

why am i in this pile .. don i deserve something better .. i mean .. when's my luck really gonna change .. Why whenever i get to know some1 new the next moment it's alr been another outcome ..
I really wonder .. if really one day when will i find someone that's suitable for me ..
well .. i have finally decided .. too take a big step ahead in front of me .. go back and study .. hmm .. yes i believe it's a great challenge .. but would it be more satisfying if you graduate able to go poly .. hmm .. that's an positive outcome ..

i don believe that in a matter of months to come .. i am unable to withhold .. what sort of trouble have i not gone thru .. hmm .. i guess i was the one who was supposed to go thru the hard way to learn the easy way out .. hmm .. what's more trouble is there for me to endure ..
Next yr is like a golden arrow to score thru the forest .. jus imagine a golden seeking its way out of the forest .. hard it may be .. blindfolded it may seems .. but wit much confidence it will find it's way out ..

its been a long long time , i have ever ever settle down and think what's is happening to me ..
some people used to say walk one step count one step .. than i would add on " hai guo tian kong.. well its's kinda of a nonsense if you would tell me tis now .. have been wasting my past two yrs for fuck >.
hmm .. well .. its not too late for me to plan my future now .. hmm .. what the hell ...
Nobody born perfect .. kinda interested singapore casino .. with it's shortage of manpower ..
i mean seriously .. think abt that .. mayb 5 yrs down the road .. the most shortage of manpower would be there .. jus imagine .. hotels casinos restaurants .. and futhur more ..
i mean its a great place to invest ur interest and studies into ..

well .. everybody have to constantly upgrade them self ..
Finally i realised after livinf for the past 19yrs .. survival for the fittest ..