saturaday night

hmm .. today woke up late .. as it was saturaday .. a day for me to sleep in without worries .. hmm .. can't stand the life here anymore .. feel like going back jb to stay le .. hmm .. but there's alot of things and accessories for me to handle .. haha .. computer and stuff .. how ?? .. nvm .. next yr i am leaving for good .. hmm .. till a better offer stand b4 me .. than say bahx ...

hmm .. realised that in this realistic world .. people tend to procrasinate abt themselves and how good they tend to be .. some sort of compliment themselves abt how good they tend to be or will stand by ur side in time of needs .. but i realised it all craps and bull shit .. don really wanna write more abt it .. hmm .. wonder how are my secondary school friends doing?? .. hmm .. heard many of them are still studying ..And learning how to reward themselves while they get the chance to .. My few most closest secondary schools "girl-friend" . turned to mei-nu le .. hmm .. such a sudden change .. times flies really fast .. Did't really get to meet them till of late .. but i guess many of them have their own personal private life le .. Not like secondary school days .. well As what i always say .. Police used to wear short pants .. but now police wear longs pants .. Self-upgrading bahx .. Wish you guys to have blissful days ahead of you ..

Mayb i should't get my self to involve too much in everything le .. just learn how to live a normal life .. hmm .. out of a sudden i felt that many conversation and words of mouth make it to real in life ... just fakes and bluff .. hmm .. Well .. this is veri pathetic but realistic .. hmm .. But it's too young for me to settle down at a place .. or what so ..
i still have the temptation to get out and play ..

Craps and hypocrate .. get the meaning ??
Especially those who talk like they would give you this and that .. take you out la .. what ever it may seems .. Men without word of honour ..this best describes it ..

friday night

seems boring today ... hmm .. went for a long drive just now just to collect a few things .. hmm .. Was thinking .. what possibly could happen between my close ones and all .. have time came in between .. or have we been so caught up with our own life .. well .. i can say is .. who knows .. i am also wondering .. well this is just a website i can fall back to .. to write things mades me go confused abt ..

wonder should i just heck de car park fine .. three HDB carpark fine .. or Just rent a car in jb .. and drive out to singapore .. hmm .. either way .. both sounds expensive .. What should i do .. these car park fines are giving me a headache since the day i came back .. but .. my car onli left 2 VEP days .. that mean i got onli two more free days .. till the end of this yr .. sounds so pathetic ..
But if i don pay de carpark fines .. also can .. the most reach singapore take bus and Mrt .. It's not like i hacen don't b4 .. but having a car seems so convenient .. but it really depends on what car you have .. if you tend to fall to have my car .. good luck .. you need lots of patience when it comes to maintanance ..

To my dearest kan-jiejie ..

For what it may seem .. for what have happen .. mayb time have come in between us .. but if you were to ask me to leave you .. or for what ever reason there is .. please give me a better excuse .. mayb all of us are all too caught up with our own life .. for better or for worst .. i will still attend ur b'dae .. if there is one .. or u are intending to open one ..

Don't really know who to call out at times .. Cos some time scare these ppl i am with this and that .. like the perception you are having .. just like Ah ann .. So it's like me meeting ... one by one .. to avoid the unnesscary conflicts .. well ..

anyway .. if you are going to celebrate ur b'dae .. do remind me early .. as i have three HDB summon to pay .. Yet to be paid .. than i can drive this car out ..
Can't take the life here .. too too boring ..

most probably i won't be going down so soon .. till near ur b'dae or so .. so i can save more money b4 spending it .. sounds nice lei ..

today no mood write alot .. today wait for car repair till 7 plus .. total of 4 hrs .. than eat le .. drive down malacca collect things .. now than reach home .. hais ..

perpharps i could take a long vacation somewhere else .. tired of working life .. kan kan bo liao 1 ..

today work was boring /.

hmm .. today woked up late again .. hmm .. cos ytd drive up from jb at around 9 plus .. reach around nilai .. around 12 plus .. slow driving .. arbo at nite gt accident this and that .. hmm .. actually don feel like working here le .. but tot of the living conditions at here and other place .. i mean cost of living .. is still so much difference .. what can i judge bout that .. i even tot if by next yr i move back to home sweet home .. where should all my computer's stuff and tv and dvd player should put .. after that immediately get a hi-fi set .. hmm .. after that it's perfect ..
well i think too far for the time being don't i .. well

hmm .. heard jie jie coming back from nz le .. haha .. hope so la .. Including family members and those that are concern .. don't pin too much hope .. even i her didi i also dare say .. well ..
but the money you earn there is much much more higher compare than here .. hmm .. i understand ..

Jus now .. that Fucking proton sage got problem again .. this time ventilation problem .. the thermometer shoot up too high .. worry me alot .. cos if tis car goes down de bloody drain ..
congrats .. after that .. you be taking bus again .. so must take care of ur own interest .. haha ..

hmm .. nth much to be said .. went gym today .. worked out for two to three hrs .. after that went for malay food nearby .. was too freaking hungry that i could't bother .. hmm when i was abt to carry my spoon .. my hand was also trembling .. what a relief .. i did some tough workout .. too much for me .. haha .. well like ppl say no pain no gain .. what the hell ..

singapore trip

last few day i went back singapore .. hmm .. went back for argent matter .. well that's all i could do .. hmm.. the rest is wait for other ppl .. hmm .. don really understand why working life is so boring .. hmm .. when i went back singapore .. haiz .. went a few places that really memories of the past still exists .. and runs through my mind .. well i am glad that the happiness you seek for is appealing and sustaining ..
hmm .. last few days .. went out with some old time friends .. went out for a drive .. initially was quite bored .. serioulsy .. cos we don even know where to start with our destination .. hmm ..
my bro .. Ah ann .. hmm .. we sat down and talk men's talk .. hmm .. went to yishun crystal .. sang sang sang .. initially no mood sing de .. but went in and "burn ppl " sang de song .. well .. not that appealing to de ear .. hahha .. hmm .. found out that he was still living in his past .. just like me .. moving on strong and hoping for a better tml .. well .. many things in life don really turn out the way you expected or appeal it would be .. obstacles will always be there to hinder ur way .. hmm .. got a little frustrated when i saw him like that .. it somehow's reminds me of my fuck-up past ..
we had our good time and fun .. as always without fail .. but money seems to be a major problem ..

than last few days when i was about to go hm .. traffic jam in the custom .. like abt 11 pm plus .. well i had no choice so i made a illegal u-turn .. what the hell .. don tell me those ppl in their right mind won't don that to ..
went back to my friends hse .. found a friend hse to taunt for the meantime .. hmm .. Ray de stead .. told me many stories .. make me so irritated .. but somehow it may me face life upfront .. hmm .. Advice them what to do and all this .. hmm .. well don really wanna see history re-happening on other ppl .. well it always do .. but .. depends ..

hmm .. talk to her last few days .. glad that she is still satisfy with her life .. at least she's more grown up now compare to last time .. Hmm i learn this phrase when i was 16 yrs old .. Learning to love some1 is easy .. but learning to give her up for her own happiness is difficult .. well .. not much of a word or much understanding .. but going it thru .. means alot ..

well .. don really understand .. have i change .. or my kan-jiejie have change .. felt that we don remain the same as b4 .. don really know how to ask her .. i had seen her thru her going thru ups and down and vice versa .. but .. for a person to qns another person seems so inspeakable ...
Jiejie .. you know who you are .. i mayb be childish and playful at times and hot-tempered at times .. but you always seems to be that guardian that guides my way thru .. but .. have time really come in between us .. well .. for all it may come .. let the bond between us tell the truth ..
for what it comes for what it may seems .. everything loses it place and time .. wish you all the best ..

wednesday

today was a noraml day .. hmm .. reach upon site upon 9 am .. did't want ppl to complain abt this and that .. sick of it .. hmm .. fuck .. want me reach there quick quick to see how stone drop izzit???
from electrical to kinectic to potiential energy izzit ??
fuck .. i learn that before .. i just can't stand the nagging and all those attitude i have been facing .. lucky it's my job .. seriously .. don't drive a person mad .. drastic means will always be found .. trust my words .. i don't like pressure and nagging ..
today went for gym .. train and tense my muscle .. see ppl train .. they always push their limits .. and encourage ppl more and more .. hmm .. suddenly i am just too indulge in gym-training .. Don really feel a bit of strain in my muscle .. went for a big makan after that .. pizza-hut .. well i learn how to reward my self everytime .. but as i went to de toilet .. the waitress clear my food .. my god .. but what can i do ..
just say nvm lor .. than walk away .. If i complain also communication problem .. scare they don't even understand what i say ??
nvm that ..
after went home .. slack at home bout an hour or so .. went for a shower .. after went for a drink .. Even though there's no night life for me at here .. i try to blend around ..
after Kan mummy say why i can pei "some1" drink drink " .. than no time pei her drink .. i was like stun for quite a while .. hmm
Hey, but seriously compare to tiffany and her .. One heaven one hell .. know what i mean .. the most 'potential' girl you can have .. and what not .. but think bout what she said .. hmm .. i am just living in my past .. But if you were to ask me if given a chance to regain that life i once had .. i would rather say NO .. cause .. many things i have experience .. have gave me a differnt view in life .. Maybe tiffany is just a duplicate in my love life .. but .. many things she explain to me or share with me .. seems so different from what i what i have experience .. Kan mummy say next time pei her driink .. hmm .. if i am available alright?? .. Kan mama .. When you laugh really heng xiang WO de kan jie nehx .. funny character ..

Today i drink a bucket .. standard de .. anymore of beer .. i would be like YO AR YO .. so cnt .. must act couscious .. my father say the principle of drinking is right???
Must have limit first and foremost .. But if you suddenly drink More than you could drink maintain it .. I seriously lost what i used to be abled to drink .. mayb it's jus the amount you are abled to go in between .. Suddenly nv drink for a few days felt something was missing .. veri de kao wei .. well.. Its jus a habit i have to maintain .. or suppress it .. don wish to be like my father"s brother .. whom die of liver cancer ..

Well suddenly thought bout the past .. maybe so .. maybe .. i am just thinking bout the past .. abt what we had or somehow experience .. hmm .. but After knowing tiffany .. it brought me to realised that many things don't really seems to be unknowingly real .. her appearance gave me much knowledge .. maybe it's just a dream .. or two .. but .. i am satisfy that at least i once had those days .. Now listening to Ai Hao Tao Tao .. To some1 there's meaning de .. Sang it to her a few times ..

What KAn mummy meaning i still don understand .. Kan mummy once said i was stupid to be like this .. ?? But .. Mummy .. When you once you had these memory that no once had ever been able to give you .. it really different .. i promise mummy i would always accompany mummy to whenever she would call me .. just for the sake of it .. by than i think i would somewhere else enjoying my life .. Before anything else ..

Tmr would be an important day for both me and my father .. going for a meeting at somewhere .. hope everything would go smooth .. And What it beholds would come true .. Other than that seems immaterial .. Money speaks louder than words .. Whom agrees .. Say hell Ya ??
HMM